I thought im in a comfort zone...but im not!

When i transferred here, i thought this place is gonna be my last workplace until i retire. Ive adapted myself to this place so well that makes me 'loving it' eventho yeah..there are few things that i dont really like, but still they dont affect my feeling that much. Eversince i know about the issue of being promoted and transfer, i feel so uneasy, worry and unsafe with my current situation now. Yes, it hasnt happened yet, but the time will come, sooner or later...one day.

I hope when the time comes, Allah will help me making the decision. I cant describe how worry i am rite now...thinking bout my own future and the kids too...

CUDA..

KERRANG Magazine

Kerrang! is a rock music magazine published by Bauer Consumer Media in the United Kingdom. It is also one of the online music magazines for those who like rock, alternative, grunge and heavy metal genre. There are reviews about music, the groups, the tour and anything get to do with music. I like the covers, and example of the covers that they have come out with are(my favourite bands):

Every year Kerrang magazine holds Kerrang Awards and for this year, the nominees are...

My Chemical Romance, 30 Seconds To Mars, Avenged Sevenfold, Bullet For My Valentine and Bring Me The Horizon will go head-to-head at the Kerrang! Awards 2011 Fuelled By Relentless Energy Drink in June.

My Chemical Romance lead the charge with five nominations. The New Jersey rockers are in the running for Best Album for Danger Days: The True Lives Of The Fabulous Killjoys, Best International Band, Best Video presented by Kerrang! TV for Na Na Na, Best Single presented by Kerrang! Radio for Planetary (GO!), and Best Live (presented by Download) at the star-studded ceremony, which is set to take place at a top-secret location in London on Thursday, June 9.

For more details, u can read here: Kerrang Awards 2011 :- http://www.kerrang.com/blog/2011/05/and_the_nominees_are_1.html

CUDA...

Farewell Twilight....Edward...Bella...

Twilight franchise will come to the end, soon. Having to know that fact, makes me feel a bit sad...I wont see Edward's face anymore(on the screen). But of course, Twilight Saga will always be my favourite books among all. This article proves it all:

Robert Pattinson says goodbye to ‘Twilight’, joins circus BY CINDY PEARLMAN Apr 27, 2011 10:52AM

So much for immortality. Vampire Edward Cullen is gone. The fanged teeth have been put into storage. The glittering makeup has hit the Hefty bag. Bring on the sunlight.

By the time you’re reading this article, Robert Pattinson will have wrapped his final scene for “Breaking Dawn: Part 2.”

In away, he’s breaking up with his ethereal BFF. “It does feel like a breakup. I do love the guy— and I’m going to miss him,” Pattinson, 24, says during an interview with the Sun-Times on a cool Sunday afternoon from his hotel suite in Santa Monica, Calif. “I prefer to think of ending this franchise like leaving school. It’s the last day of high school.”

click here for full article...Chicago Sun-Times.

These are the stills taken from: http://hisgoldeneyes.com/category/breaking-dawn/

I will definitely miss this vampire love story...My Mr. Cullen...the Immortal...the gorgeous vampire.

CUDA...

Please keep holding on,CUDA!!!

I like this song...the lyrics kinda motivate me. By Avril Lavigne...Keep Holding On. It was famous few years back.

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

La da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Keep holding on
Keep holding on

There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

CUDA...

Tetiba rasa sayu..sedih...worry..

Tersentak sekejap semalam, aku terjaga dari tidoq dalam jam 12.46 tghmalam, lepas mimpikn my sweetheart. Tapi, mimpi tu bukan something yg happy. Mimpi yg sedih...aku rasa sayu. Mmg dah nama pun mimpi, tapi cukup utk tggal kesan kat aku ni...coz aku still teringat2 sampai skrg...Berharap ianya takkan jadi kenyataan, sebab aku tak tau cmana nak hadapi kalau betol2 terjadi mcm dlm mimpi tu...

Lepas tu, kat ofis aku pulak tengah riuh pasai kenaikan pangkat dan arahan perpindahan ke kolej lain kalau depa terima promotion tu. Contohnya, dari DG48 ke DG52, quota kami(English Unit) dah lebih,so few of them kena pi kolej lain kalau nak DG52 tu. Juz imagine, kwn2 aku yg selesa di sini, beli umh, dah bertahun2 dok kat sini, anak2 dah sekolah, kena pindah kalo nk naik pangkat. Sian pun ada, coz surat tu lepas cuti baru depa tau, dan kena decide dlm sehari ja. Kalau x p xpa, tapi maknanya depa xmaula pangkat tu, so akan kekal dgn gred yg ada skrgla, lambatla pulak nak naik ke gred tu lagi. So dari segi seniority, depa dah rugi la...

Yg aku risaukan ni, batch aku la.Sekarang DG44...2-3 tahun lagi naik ke DG48. Batch aku pun ramai ni..risau aku pun akan ditawarkan benda yg sama jugak sbb quota kat kmpp dah penuh. Am i ready to accept that offer and move to a new place? So, the first and the most important thing that i really need to consider is, my condition at that time...Of course i'll take the one that benefits me the most..Beza gila gaji basic DG44 and DG48 tau..tolak mmgla rugi...Tapi,again..it all depends on him.

Dah rasa chaotic sikit sini...ada yg kena bertukar ke KMPh, KMPk, KMP and KMM. Aku kalo dpt KMPk or KMP,maybe la aku p dgn senang hati...pikirkn the kids lg...owh...Bila aku ckp dgn dia, dia pun sedih dgr...takut maybe. So, aku bg dia time frame...tempoh...tgk camana 2 thun nie... May Allah guide us all...dan moga dipermudahkanNya segala urusan kita di dunia nie hendaknya...Amin.

CUDA...

WHAT DA HECK!!!!

Ya Allah...terkejut aku tengok video ni. Budak2 sekolah menengah, yg baru berumur belasan tahun ni, bukannya pi sekolah untuk mencari ilmu, tapi pi sekolah utk belajar cara2 membuli org. Teruk giler beb!! Cuba tengok yang kena buli tue, siannyakan? She is so helpless...yalah, she's alone okay. By the way, where the rest of her friends? Why didn't they stop those few girls from bullying her? Didnt they have any sympathy towards her? She was crying all the time...They cut her hair, they slapped her few times, they pulled her hair, they pushed her head...OMG...If i were her, i would have run from the classroom maybe...

Juz now i watched the news on TV3 about this case, those who bullied her have gotten their punishment already...suspend from school for few weeks.They deserve it!! If they do this to my gal, haah...im not gonna sit down n relax...might do the same thing like the gal's father did, lodge a report...or maybe ill go to the gals' houses and confront with their parents n even show the video that is on air via youtube. This is the gal's dignity...and they have given her a nightmare...not to mention, give the school a bad reputation when school is supposed to be a place for learning and building friendship.