One Republic-Come Home

What a lovely song....i got to hear this song when i watched The Vampire Diaries Season 2 Episode1:The Return. But, the one that i listen to featuring Sara Bareilles. Nice one...Try to listen to this. "Come home...come home...ive been waiting for u,so long..so long....

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Mengapa Hawa tercipta saat Adam tertidur dan Hawa melahirkan saat dirinya terbangun?

Terharu baca artikel ni.Harap kaum lelaki akan lebih memahami hati dan perasaan orang perempuan ni.

Seorang laki-laki jika dia kesakitan, maka dia akan membenci. Sebaliknya wanita, saat dia kesakitan, maka semakin bertambah sayang dan cintanya,, Seandainya Hawa diciptakan dari Adam As saat Adam terjaga, pastilah Adam akan merasakan sakit keluarnya Hawa dari sulbinya, hingga dia membenci Hawa. Akan tetapi Hawa diciptakan dari Adam saat dia tertidur, agar Adam tidak merasakan sakit dan tidak membenci Hawa. Sementara seorang wanita akan melahirkan dalam keadaan terjaga, melihat kematian dihadapannya, namun semakin sayang dan cinta nya kepada anak yang dilahirkan bahkan ia akan menebus nya dengan kehidupannya.

Sesungguhnya Allah menciptakan Hawa dari tulang rusuk yang bengkok yang tugasnya adalah melindungi Qalbu(jantung, hati nurani). Oleh karena itu, tugas Hawa adalah menjaga qalbu. Kemudian Allah menjadikan nya bengkok untuk melindungi qalbu dari sisi yang kedua. Sementara Adam diciptakan dari tanah, dia akan menjadi petani, tukang batu, tukang besi, dan tukang kayu. Wanita selalu berinteraksi dengan perasaaan, dengan hati, dan wanita akan menjadi seorang ibu yang penuh kasih sayang, seorang saudari yang penyayang, seorang putri yang manja, dan seorang istri yang penurut.

Dan wajib bagi Adam untuk tidak berusaha meluruskan tulang yang bengkok tersebut, seperti yang dikabarkan oleh Nabi Muhammad SAW, “jika seorang lelaki meluruskan yang bengkok tersebut dengan serta merta, maka dia akan mematahkannya.” Maksud nya adalah dengan kebengkokan tersebut adalah perasaan yang ada pada diri seorang wanita yang mengalahkan perasaan seorang laki-laki.

Maka wahai Adam janganlah merendahkan perasaan Hawa, dia memang diciptakan seperti itu. Apabila seseorang wanita mengatakan dia sedang bersedih, tetapi dia tidak menitikkan airmata, itu berarti dia sedang menangis di dalam hatinya. Apabila dia tidak menghiraukan kamu setelah kamu menyakiti hatinya, lebih baik beri dia waktu untuk menenangkan hatinya sebelum kamu meminta maaf. Dan wanita sulit untuk mencari sesuatu yang dia benci untuk orang yang paling dia sayang .

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Twilight mode..

Yesterday, i watched TWILIGHT again for uncountable times. Suddenly, Edward Cullen reminds me to, how much i miss him. I miss him in the TWILIGHT saga, the gorgeous n handsome vampire, the most considerate and selfless creature, as described by Stephenie Meyer. I know it is impossible to find a guy like him. But, there's nothing wrong with dreaming and wishing for one, that almost fulfills all the criteria. If not all.

Well as for me,I never wanna be Bella. Bella sacrifices her own mortal life to be an immortal, a vampire. She is willing to risk her own life n everything, for the one she loves. Well, i might not do the same but i have my own definition of sacrifice(if mine are counted in) for the ones i love. I wont turn down my own family,for sure. Family, is there, whenever i feel down and sad. They are not guilty for every incident and tragedy that happened in my life so far. Im the one who seek for it. It's me, to be blamed for.

I never meant to hurt others' feelings. Sometimes, i face my own difficulty of life, despite having my family, there are many things that i cant tell them, cant share with them. I turn to this negative side of me. I know im not that bad...sometimes, the rebellious thoughts and actions, all the reckless and stupid acts, linger over me.

All i want, all i wish...my loved ones to be happy..even if im not happy, im willing to swallow all the pains. No matter how bitter they are. To cause more n more pains or troubles is never in my intention. I juz had my bad days too...To be this loud isnt my intention too. Im juz looking for ways to reduce the bad feelings that i have. Waiting for my friends to gimme the support coz if i fail this time around, im gonna take almost forever to heal the pain. Almost unbearable. Almost.

All these quotes mean a lot to me:

I was consumed by the mystery Edward presented. And more than a little obsessed by Edward himself.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.67

I was consumed by the mystery Edward presented. And more than a little obsessed by Edward himself.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.67

I can’t imagine why that would be frustrating at all — just because someone refuses to tell you what they’re thinking, even if all the while they’re making cryptic little remarks specifically designed to keep you up at night wondering what they could possibly mean… now, why would that be frustrating?...
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.90

I was completely absorbed, except for one small part of my mind that wondered what Edward was doing now, and trying to imagine what he would be saying if he were here with me.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.117

I didn’t know if there ever was a choice, really. I was already in too deep. Now that I knew — if I knew — I could do nothing about my frightening secret. Because when I thought of him, of his voice, his hypnotic eyes, the magnetic force of his personality, I wanted nothing more than to be with him right now.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.139

It was hard to keep up — his sudden mood changes left me always a step behind, dazed.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.266

I didn’t like it. Not seeing you. It makes me anxious, too.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.190

He was a different Edward than the one I had known. And I felt all the more besotted by him. It would cause me physical pain to be separated from him now.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.283

I’m feeling extremely insignificant.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.326

Stay, Edward, stay with me…
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 23, p.456

I couldn’t cry yet, I told myself. I still had a long way to go. Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 22, p.439

I had to accept that I wouldn’t see Edward again, not even one last glimpse of his face to carry with me to the mirror room. I was going to hurt him, and I couldn’t say goodbye.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 21, p.431

But it won’t be all right when I’m not with you.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.396

I love you. I will always love you, no matter what happens now.Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.39

All was silent for a long moment. The living descendants of magic and legend stared at one another across the fire with sadness in their eyes.Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 11, p.259

You really do want to keep me, no matter how I turn out?Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 12, p.273

You’re in every thought I have. Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 19, p.413

Okay, look, Edward. Here’s the thing… I’ve already gone crazy once. I know what my limits are. And I can’t stand it if you leave me again.Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 19, p.419

You’ve always seemed more like a dream than reality.Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.513

I dunno what to write anymore.Maybe im juz out of words. This is me. If i ever hurt ur feeling, im very sorry for everything that i said n caused u to feel all the unwanted feelings. I would never want to hurt anybody's feeling. People can change...u might not notice it, but others can see the changes. Sorry people for my bad n down days...feeling a bit low..too low.

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Richard Marx - Right Here Waiting

This song, i heard it on RED fm this morning, on my way coming here. I was touched by this song, the words. I used to like this song, Richard's voice, so nice..so gentle..soothing.I remember to my own story. Will i wait for him no matter what happens? Hmm..i hope im that strong. It is not easy...but i have to take the chance coz i know what i want. I hope Allah S.W.T will help us to go thru this difficult time. So hard that it can make me shed my tears sometimes.When there is hope...there is a way and i hope we will the way..InsyaAllah. Life is getting more complicated to me.But, i'd rather take it positively.Ill be right here waiting for you...selagi diizinkanNya for only He knows how much we want this to become a reality.

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Rapunzel Tangled's review

Yeah, i watched it already in 3D version yesterday with syikin. Tell you what, you should go and watch it!!!Hahahah..hillarious and it will make you LOL of coz. Eventho' it is a bit costly, RM 17(since it is a new movie) but i would say it worth it. With 1 hour and 45 minutes show, enough to make you leave the cinema with a relieved feeling. Considering i am not in my best state of condition nowadays, fighting with my inner feelings and emotions, i have to find some sources of entertainment to make me forget my conflicts or else i will do ridiculous thing, as reckless as Bella in New Moon.

Well, this version of Rapunzel, is of course a modified one, with some new parts that you wont find in the original piece of the fairy tale. Firstly, the hero, who is supposed to be a prince in the original masterpiece, isnt a hero in this version but rather a thief- a damn good looking thief ok. Huhu... And some more changes-I wont spoil the story, you gotta watch it urself. I personally enjoyed watching it. It really made me laugh-the horse,Maximus, is sort of multi talented horse. Hahahaha...It makes the movie even more interesting. Rapunzel is pretty, petite and what do you expect?Of course she has the longest hair ever!

Go watch it. I give 4/5 to this animated movie...

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Lady Antebellum - I Run To You

I like the lyrics....nice one.

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What?Me and country songs???

I used to like grunge, underground and alternative music. Name me all the groups, i know majority of them. Not juz i listen to the songs, but also collected the cassettes, cds,pictures etc. A big fan i was. But lately, ive been listening to RED FM while driving to the office, home or other places.Im very interested in country songs. When i first listen to I Need You and I Run to you by Lady Antebellum, the melody...the lyrics...the voice...comforts my feeling and i almost cried. I fell in love with it. Then, more and more songs after that, Terrified by Katherine Mcphee, Speak Now,You Belong with me and Mine by Taylor Swift, and If i die Young by The Band Perry..Love it!!!
Owh i think it's about time to slower down my pace. I need to change my genre of music. I need to change myself in a way coz lately im very emotional and sensitive. I dunno what to do..how to react..

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Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows Part 1's review

I watched Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows Part 1, last saturday afternoon, and i really like it. I give 4.5 over 5 for its visuals and the storyline which follow the book very much. More intense this time around, juz more complicated. I never miss watching Harry Potter at the cinema. Ive read all the books and as for me, i agree that the last book is the most complicated one among all.I took the longest time to finish reading the last book, the thickest among all too. Very intense indeed... However, the movie juz revealed half of the book, there's still another half, next year. I cant wait for it...

In Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows - Part I, Harry faces new troubles; he must collect the Horcruxes that evil Lord Voldemort has left behind to vanquish him. Little does he realize that the final Horcrux is Harry himself. Killing the Horcrux will make him loose all the powers, which make him so much alike the ‘Dark Lord’ himself. He has no idea, where these are and he has to destroy them all, even without the faintest idea how to do so.

Directed by David Yates, this movie does not allow Harry and his friends to experiment. There is absolutely no room for trials and errors. With the ‘Dark Lord’ rising in power again, Harry and his team has to ensure that they use all the tricks up their sleeves and magic to vanquish Voldemort. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows is a thrilling roller coaster ride, which forces you to sit and watch, even though you may have read the novel.

So why wait??Go and watch it yourself. I guarantee, you wont be disappointed!!

GO HARRY!!!!

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Selamat hari raya haji..

Salam...

Hari ni hari raya aidiladha. Raya ni untuk meraikan orang2 yang tengah mengerjakan haji dan juga khusus utk hamba2 Allah membuat korban-lembu. Terasa sayu mendengar seruan takbir dan juga lagu utk org yang pegi haji..Labbaikkallah...Humma labbaik... Bilakah agaknya aku dpt peluang itu? Teringin rasanya aku menjejakkan kaki di bumi suci itu, mengadap Kaabah..dan berpeluang mengerjakan haji? InsyaAllah..satu hari nanti...Apapun, sudah tentu aku kena dulu membersihkan diri aku,perangai2 aku yang tak elok ni,sebelum aku pergi ke Mekah. Hati kena suci...perangai yang tak elok kena buang jauh2...

Selamat mengerjakan haji pada jemaah2 haji Malaysia...dan selamat pulang. Mudah2an amalan mereka diterimaNYA....Amin.

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What one's fav. color signifies...

Purple

What it represents: Purple evokes the energy of illusion, imagination and fantasy. Or should we say purrrrple? Purple tends to inspire coyness, romance, flirtation and teasing — it builds anticipation with a dash of playfulness. The downside of purple is unrealistic expectations. Is it easier to live in your fantasy world than the real world? Some purple-lovers prefer it.

Understanding people who love it: If you love purple, you can be an imaginative romantic or prefer imaginary romance, depending on how you feel. 

Me:Owh...that is so true...imaginative i am..I wish i could live in a fantasy world..Thats why i love all the fantasy and not-so-true story.I always love purple..feel more confident when wearing one.

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Silverchair ROCKS!!!!

This is also one of my favourite songs from them during their years of glory. I miss my teenage years so much...Daniel johns was one of the hawt lead singers for grunge or alternative rock band. Silverchair will remain in my memory....eventho they have changed their music due to their maturity n age..They have grown n so did the music. Their music boosts my adrenaline level while driving. Huhu...


If you read the lyrics, well most of the words are written in a sarcastic way, mainly aimed to make the government or politicians realize that this world is getting corrupted n damaged each day....I like the video clip too...Love u Silverchair!!

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Miss You Love...

Silverchair, was one of my favourite bands back in late 90s n early 2000. Their music was my favourite, the Australian Alternative rock band.The band formed as Innocent Criminals in Newcastle, New South Wales, Australia, in 1992, with their current lineup of vocalist and guitarist Daniel Johns, bass guitarist Chris Joannou, and drummer Ben Gillies.

Silverchair discography, the albums:

• Frogstomp (1995)

• Freak Show (1997)-My favourite album among all!!
  

1. "Slave" (music by Johns, Gillies, lyrics by Johns) - 3:57
2. "Freak" (Johns) - 3:49
3. "Abuse Me" (Johns) - 4:03
4. "Lie to Me" (Johns) - 1:22
5. "No Association" (music by Johns, Gillies, lyrics by Johns) - 3:56
6. "Cemetery" (Johns) - 4:04
7. "The Door" (Johns) - 3:38
8. "Pop Song for Us Rejects" (Johns) - 3:15
9. "Learn to Hate" (music by Gillies, lyrics by Johns) - 4:21
10. "Petrol & Chlorine" (Johns) - 4:00
11. "Roses" (music by Johns, Gillies, lyrics by Johns) - 3:34
12. "Nobody Came" (music by Johns, Gillies, lyrics by Johns) - 7:02
13. "The Closing" (music by Gillies, lyrics by Johns) - 3:27

• Neon Ballroom (1999)-Getting more emo in this album...
  

1. "Emotion Sickness" - 6:01
2. "Anthem for the Year 2000" - 4:08
3. "Ana's Song (Open Fire)" - 3:42
4. "Spawn Again" - 3:31
5. "Miss You Love" - 4:01
6. "Dearest Helpless" - 3:35
7. "Do You Feel the Same" - 4:18
8. "Black Tangled Heart" - 4:34
9. "Point of View" - 3:35
10. "Satin Sheets" - 2:24
11. "Paint Pastel Princess" - 4:33
12. "Steam Will Rise" - 5:18

• Diorama (2002)

All tracks by Daniel Johns.

1. "Across the Night" – 5:37
2. "The Greatest View" – 4:06
3. "Without You" – 5:17
4. "World Upon Your Shoulders" – 4:37
5. "One Way Mule" – 4:15
6. "Tuna in the Brine" – 5:40
7. "Too Much of Not Enough" – 4:43
8. "Luv Your Life" – 4:29
9. "The Lever" – 4:22
10. "My Favourite Thing" – 4:14
11. "After All These Years"
    "Outro" (hidden track) – 9:53

• Young Modern (2007)

All songs written by Daniel Johns unless otherwise noted.^[7]

1. "Young Modern Station" – 3:11 (Johns, Julian Hamilton)
2. "Straight Lines" – 4:18 (Johns, Hamilton)
3. "If You Keep Losing Sleep" – 3:20
4. "Reflections of a Sound" – 4:09
5. "Those Thieving Birds (Part 1)/ Strange Behaviour/ Those Thieving Birds (Part 2)" – 7:26
6. "The Man That Knew Too Much" – 4:19
7. "Waiting All Day" – 4:28 (Johns, Hamilton)
8. "Mind Reader" – 3:07 (Johns, Hamilton)
9. "Low" – 3:48
10. "Insomnia" – 3:06
11. "All Across the World" – 4:01

I juz want to flashback my memories when i really enjoyed listening to their songs, during my teenage years..i always like his voice...So enjoy!!!

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My favourite books

Here are some of my favourite books...in my collection.

The Time Traveler's Wife


Jangan Bersedih

The Vampire Diaries books

The Vampire's Assistant


Anthony Horrowitz


Ketika Cinta bertasbih Ayat-ayat Cinta

Roald Dahl books

Impossible



Harry Potter

Twilight series

Shopaholic series

Sophie Kinsella

The Immortals Series

The Wolves of Mercy Fall series

Fallen


The Vampire Academy Series


Dajjal Duma Key

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OWH LINGER...

I juz bought three new books-my favourite pastime that ive been neglecting all this while, which are LINGER by MAGGIE STIEFVATER, SHADOWLAND n DARK FLAME by ALYSON NOEL..Well, Linger is actually the sequel to SHIVER,from THE WOLVES OF MERCY FALLS an extraordinary love story about human being n a wolf...I love Shiver, so i cant wait to read Linger.

And for Shadowland n Dark Flame, they are the sequel to Evermore n Blue Moon. It is about immortals..from THE IMMORTALS SERIES. I love it...So im reading those three books at the moment...one at one time...You may want to check out the websites for more information on the writers n their books. Juz click on the link above.... So, try those books...You might like them.CHILLAX!!

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TUNJUK SATU BINTANG

Cuba kau tunjuk satu bintang
Sebagai pedoman langkah kita
Jabat erat hasil karyaku,
hingga terbias, warna syahdu

Akan ku ukir, satu kisah tentang kita,
dimana baik dan buruk, terangkum oleh indah
Akan ku cerna, semua karya cipta kita,
dimana hitam dan putih, terbalut hangatnya cinta

Dan bila mimpi terwujudkan,
di sisimu selalu, hariku..

I really like this song from Sheila on 7...It is an old song, was famous few years back...It has a nice melody..n lyrics. Reminds me to my dear whenever i listen to this..I dont wanna look back..Let bygones be bygones....This is my story now..n what my future will be. For all i know is, im feeling good despite all difficulties that i have to face. Alhamdulillah for whatever i have now. Syukran Ya Allah...

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GOOD LUCK!

Salam to all...
I would like to take this opportunity to wish ALL THE BEST n GOOD LUCK to my students in their upcoming 1st semester final exam n MUET exam. I hope all of u can answer the questions n do ur very best. I pray that all of you will succeed n proceed to 2nd semester...InsyaAllah..Amin.

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You are the ONLY EXCEPTION..

My favourite..THE ONLY EXCEPTION..

When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darling,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm
Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well, You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

Ohh---

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, And I'm on my way to believing

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Linkin Park - The Catalyst (Official HD)

The Catalyst from LINKIN PARK

They have returned with a new album n new singles. This is one of their hits. What do u think?I used to be their big fan, Crawling, In the end, Papercut etc..are among my favourites. I like their music n their lyrics are simple n very straight to the point, really express my feeling at that time. BUT, this is different. Very different. Try to listen to this one.Hmm..i dont really like it..too noisy...

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Syawal is almost over....

Salam...

My family..

Well, this year i had a moderate raya celebration...economy wise of course. Still, im glad i have a chance to celebrate it with the loved ones, my family n my special guy. I also had a chance to rebuild friendship with my bestfriend, Ana, who was once stand behind me n always gave me her support. I used to go to her house during weekend(during my school time) n spent my time there, by doing many unforgettable teenager's activities together..huhu...what a memory... very meaningful.

My beloved kids n i...


My family..syawal 2010

My parents..

My bestfriend,Ana n her nephew...

So, hopefully next year will be even more meaningful to me...I pray my hope n dream will come true...InsyaAllah...Amin.

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The Arrivals pt.1 (intro)

Recently, i am addicted to this series of video clips, produced by Noreagaa n his friend(tq to my student,Farid, for sharing this video with me), revealing the biggest secret ever regarding the Freemason n Illuminati group(they are the anti-christ group, worship evil/satan....Ull be surprised to know who has joined this group)I cant stop thinking n watching the complete series of The Arrivals(52 clips altogether, which i got from my student).You can download it from utube or u can follow the blog:http://thewakeupproject.blogspot.com for more information about their upcoming projects.

In general, the videos contain all the information, the history, the explanation regarding the biggest lie ever that has been told to all of us by those powerful countries, USA, BRITISH n not to forget the master for all, ISRAEL-more to ZIONIST actually. U have to prepare your mind for that. You have to get ready to accept new information n to see their point of views as new inputs.

Yes, after watching few clips, i began to notice n realize n not just that, my eyes are wide opened to see something that all of us failed to see before. Our minds are simply corrupted n manipulated with all the unnecessary agendas by those big n powerful countries, via media. The input that we have gotten so far, none other than the wrong ones. Sadly to say, how many of us, investigate or try to find out the truth behind all of these agendas? Many of us, believe and accept everything without having any doubt about it.So, i urge u, Muslimin n muslimat, to watch this series of videos, and see whether you agree or not with me.

Until the end of the series, u will begin to understand what is actually happening in the world lately. All the world catastrophes such as wars, poverty, diseases, UFO phenomenon etc. are actually part of the plan, in preparing this whole world for a new government n ruler of the universe,The New World Order-none other than the Satan's agenda.Our minds are trained to see what they want us to see rather than on what we should acually see-the truth is said to be out there. BUT,the truth can be a painful one too..so get ready for whatever it is. If u a true believer of ISLAM, you will believe in every possibility that might take place in our world. For Allah knows the reasons for all these.

We might be weak in terms of energy, but we are not weak in terms of our spirits. This is the least that i can do, to share with all of you, what i feel based on my personal view after watching the complete series of The Arrivals. And what i feel right now, has changed the way i see the world now. Maybe it has changed my own personality too...to be more awake n alert.

Beware of the signs...be prepared for it. The day will come...it is just a matter of time...May Allah save our souls...n guide us all with HIS light. InsyaAllah, we will not get lost along the way...Amin. "ALLAH HU AKBAR!!!!!!"

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SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL..

Salam

SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL OF U, N MAAF ZAHIR BATIN....Have a blast celebration n have a safe journey...

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Ramadhan is almost over...

Salam everyone.

Ramadhan is almost over, gonna leave us soon, less than a week...Syawal will welcome us, n we are gonna celebrate hari raya, the day in which we will meet our family members, gather with our relatives, those who rarely come back will show their faces on that day...seek forgiveness with each other, share stories of our old time,n what is happier than having hari raya meals with all of em? There...we will cherish the moment of togetherness, reunite once again. It is such a great feeling.

On top of that, this coming raya will be celebrated with moderate, and this time around i cant afford to have an open house like last year. Economy wise....of coz. But, my kids will be the happiest persons among all. They have everything, i bought em new clothes n new shoes...Well,I dont care bout myself as long as they have what they are supposed to have. This coming raya, i pray and hope for the best to happen. I pray my life will be better. I pray i will get what i want. InsyaAllah.

This ramadhan is very meaningful to me. I love this ramadhan...I feel my life is almost complete.Well....with the presence of somebody who is so special to me, i feel happier. At least, somebody cares bout me, so so much. Tq for the concern. I pray that Allah S.W.T will make our dream come true....Amin. My parents have given us their blessing. So, I pray everything will go smoothly....Amin.

So, to all of you, SELAMAT HARI RAYA...n forgive me for any wrong doings that ive done, unintentionally of course or intentionally(if u believe so).Im very sorry for everything, for all the inconvenience that i caused you. Thats why, MAAF ZAHIR n BATIN....May all of u be blessed by Allah...n have a blast syawal...insyaAllah...

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Lately...

Lately, there're so many things that i have to do. Sometimes i wonder, why do these people want to burden themselves by doing things that aren't supposed to be done at all? Then at the end, more problems are created. Im tired with all these. Hmm...i guess i dont understand their intentions. I feel like going somewhere, relaxing my body n mind, for a while. But, it is impossible. I can never run. Im stuck on the ground n i cant fly.

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Waiting..

Waiting for u to come back....i miss you.

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SICK..

Im not feeling well today..I guess i pushed myself too hard for others..I need to rest...seriously.Ive cancelled everything...So, im done..

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Special menu for today..

Salam to all.

Well,since today i didnt work, so i'd decided to cook, after a while. Hmm..my menu for today, Ikan Kerapu stim, daging black pepper, kangkung goreng belacan, caramel pudding and bubur caca. So, my mum could actually relax today when i did all the cooking...Alhamdulillah...

KERAPU STIM....

For tomorrow, i havent decided on the menu...Maybe, something to do with prawns or squids...We'll see....

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Alhamdulillah..

Salam everyone.

Today, i feel much happier n better. Im done, finally, with all the minutes of meetings. Being a secretary for two big organizations is not easy. I have to do this and that.Sometimes i feel my time is never enough, n i need few more hours. Well, wanna make it to 28 hours maybe. Yeah, it is a big opportunity and it shows how much people put their trust in me n they know that i can do the work, that's what they said. As for me, im tired. Feel like rushing here n there.

Despite of feeling better, i also feel happy today. My part time job so far went well. I enjoy teaching the students, n i think this is me, my nature. To teach ,share knowledge n deliver new information to the students are in my bloodline. I cant imagine myself working as doctor, lawyer, business woman or even soldier! Hmm..im very glad n thankful for the job that i have.Alhamdulillah.

They said, it is not easy to be a teacher or lecturer. Yes, i couldnt agree more with this. But, no matter how hard it can be, ill do my best.Actually what makes teaching profession looks hard is, all the non-teaching workload or the admin.'s work. Teachers/lecturers have to do other jobs, other tasks which are not theirs!! Thats why....ISO, courses bla..bla..bla.. n many others. Im afraid i might explode one day, getting sick with all those things.

Allah is GREAT. Even the most impossible thing can happen in our lives if HE allows it. Well, it happened to me last few days. But, im very certain with what i want in this life, so i wont turn my back anymore. Life must go on, no matter what. Besides that, im happy n grateful with the life that i have rite now. I did't ask from others, but i use my own effort to earn more money for my family. Alhamdulillah. As long as i remain as strong as i am rite now, ill survive....InsyaAllah..Amin.

Thank you to my family for the endless support that u gave me, during my darkest hours, during my joy....My family is always there, for me. Thank you to my beloved children, I LOVE YOU two unconditionally, limitless n borderless. What im doing now is for you two....Hopefully both of you will grow up well, n be a good person...better than ur mum.Amin.

And, to u my dearie Lan, Tq for the motivation n support that u have given me. I dunno what the future might hold for us, but insyaAllah,only Allah knows what is the best for us. The deep hole in my heart is finally filled by ur presence.The ups n downs n the uncertainty of what will happen, are part of our lives n relationship. Tq for being there, whenever i need you the most. U know how i feel towards you.Tq once again dear.

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Dont care anymore..

I guess i dont care anymore what will happen in the future for i know ive done my very best to deal with every matter. I will go with the flow n see what happen later. Im tired chasing this n that. So let it be...let it be...Ya Allah, plese gimme the strength that i need. I wanna stay strong, even stronger than i am rite now...Amin.

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Welcome ya Ramadhan Al-Mubarak..

Salam...ahlan wasahlan ya marhaban..

Welcome Ramadhan..welcome. Im waiting for this ramadhan, when all the good things that could possibly happen during this fasting month, will happen to me n my family. InsyaAllah. I wanna be a good muslimah n servant to Him. I hope n pray that i will get His blessing...Amin. I wanna avoid all the things that can reduce my 'pahala'...InsyaAllah. Yeah....in the meantime, avoid wasting money on food etc...U know when it comes to bazaar ramadhan, everything looks interesting n delicious.Every kuih looks so tempting...so, i will buy the kuih that i want n not the unwanted one.hehehe... Happy Fasting to all of you...May Allah bless our ramadhan n our fasting n our ibadah.Amin.

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Afiq's besday..

Dedicated to my son,Afiq.

Today is my beloved son's besday,Muhammad Afiq Farhan...Today, he is 5 years old. I pray that he will be a good muslim, better than me. I pray that he will be a good son to me. I pray that Allah will protect him n bless his life, n hope he will succeed in his life, much better than me. InsyaAllah...I love u so much dear. I pray that Allah will give u a great life n health for i love u,only He knows...Amin.

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I wanna share with all of u, a very informative article about,How to control our anger... Have a read. Sama2lah kita menjadi insan yg lebih pemaaf...Amin..

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Doesnt matter...to my loyal silent reader..

Hmm.....i guess i dont care anymore. Let Allah judge me. Who are u to judge me? Ok, im not good, im a sinner, n i repent for everything i did in my past. Be fair please. As if u never do any wrongdoings? How can u be so damn sure about it? Juz because people never say anything about it, or tell u, u can conclude that all people like u? Hmm..i dunno..Coz, i dont care if u have done any wrongdoings or not, but PLEASE, dont talk as if u are so damn perfect..Look at yourself first before you talk about others. I can accept all the things that u said,bout me. I was like that before. BEFORE.BEFORE.n BEFORE. Arent u tired with this?Finding others' faults?You had better think bout u, how can u improve urself to be a better person rather than find time to correct others who dont really need ur synical advice at all...So, dont waste ur time....Ramadhan is coming. It is Juz around the corner. So, I hope Allah will bless us all...n im waiting for His blessing too.. InsyaAllah...Amin.

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Much Better..

Starting from yesterday evening,i feel so much better...so much. Today even more. My feeling, is natural now. Tq to you dear, for making me feel this way. Feel motivated, stronger n more positive.How can i forget the way u sang to me? U tried so hard to make me feel better, something that i cant forget..ever. U sang with ur fullest effort, eventho' u know ur voice isnt that melodious n nice, BUT, u had tried ur very best in order to calm me down. Tq dear..tq...I know how ridiculous can it be, doing something that uve never done before, in ur entire life. U put aside ur ego, n never gives up..juz like before..Im sorry for all the things happened, misunderstood..misinterpreted. U r a weird person, the way u think is different from others, u see things in different ways. I like ur point of view n we r in the same boat dear. Thats why we can share our problems..N, u trust me with all ur heart. It seems that u trust me that much, so i wont spoil n ruin ur trust on me. I hope u will be juz fine dear..I pray for u, n my prayer always goes to u. I believe if we have a good intention and work it out in the right way, insyaAllah Allah will help us. I never give up n surrender in this. Fighting for something that i really want, im not gonna give up...

Fighting for this love..

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It is cloudy...

I thought the sunny days wont end...they will last long...they will stay there...but, then the cloudy days came, out of nowhere..I have to go through those days, without any hesitation, doubt n regret..I thought im strong, but strong is not the word actually. I thought ive changed my attributes, from stubborn n selfish to selfless and more considerate. But, my thoughts are wrong. Im who i am. Im trying so hard, still im stuck on the ground, n fell down when trying to fly.With such broken wings, how can i expect myself to fly that high? Now, i will follow my mind rather than my heart...Heart can be wrong, but mind, i can make wiser decision...Perhaps..Definitely maybe..

RUN..
Run...im running...running through the winding road
When i see only darkness, at the end of the road.
Run again, trying to choose a different path,
The path that i dont know where it's going to end..
Run again, to reach the ending of the road, when all i see, is only a total darkness.
Im running..runnning....until the end of the endless road.

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Little by little..

Ive been thinking n reconsidering a lot lately about so many things. I think, i need more time. Im at fault in this matter. I have to feel the certainty about this one, should feel very absolute n know the reason of doing this. Hmm..what is the main purpose for this? Yeah...im wondering now. Now, i think ive become as the old me a bit....

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Missing you..

                                                                     Some words of love

Within you I lose myself...
Without you I find myself
Wanting to be lost again.
~Author UnknownWhat is the opposite of two? A lonely me, a lonely you. ~Richard WilburWhen I miss you, sometimes I listen to music or look at pictures of you, not to remind me of you but to make me feel as if I'm with you. It makes me forget the distance and capture you...by James

You are the sun in my day, the wind in my sky, the waves in my ocean and the beat in my heart... I Miss You...by Anonymous

i love you with all my heart, but i didn't know true love hurts so hard, i love and i miss you, every single second i wanna be with you, i know ill always love you, for there is only one love to me, baby that you, so ill say, im always gonna be with you everyday.......

I miss you like the sun misses the flowers, like the sun misses the flowers in the depths of winter, instead of beauty to direct it's light to, the heart hardens like the frozen world which your absence has banished me to...by William in "A Knight's Tale"

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