HEPI BESDAY DEAR..

Today is my lil princess' besday, NURFATIN QISTINA..She's now 2 years old.My..time moves so fast, n i feel like juz gave birth to her..She's so cute, cheekie, naughty, clever n not to forget a pampered daughter too. I only have two children n i really appreciate it, Alhamdulillah. Im very grateful to have them in my life, n they have coloured my world, n make me feel so blessed...

It's not easy to be a mum of two kids(well,there are many more who have more than mine!), i really have to work hard, to be strong, to hold still, to be patient,n to show them that i really care n concern bout them. I sometimes walk on the other side of the road, n get lost..Then, i reminded myself of the right path that i should go. Again, i started to take control of it...my own journey, my own life...with my two lovely kids..I luv u both my dear children...Muhammad Afiq Farhan n Nurfatin Qistina..Nothing can separate us from each other, i hope..Till death do us apart..

So, to the besday gal, i hope ull grow up n be a good daughter, a good person n muslimah..I hope Allah S.W.T. will always protect u from any harm n also bless u dear..Ibu sayang fatin..I luv u..

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all i wanted..

This is a very nice song from my fav band PARAMORE from their latest album, Brand New Eyes..The lyrics..do remind me to my own life..

Think of me when you're out, when you're out there
I'll beg you nice from my knees
And when the world treats you way too fairly
Well it's a shame I'm a dream
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
I think I'll pace my apartment a few times
And fall asleep on the couch
Wake up early to black and white re-runs?
That escaped from the mouth
Oh-OhAll I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
I could follow you to the beginning
And just relive the start
And maybe then we'll remember to slow down
To all of our favorite parts
All I wanted was you

Yeah..all i wanted was...argh..i dunno...Sometimes we have to forget our needs..or wat we want..for the sake of others'..

All i wanted-PARAMORE

wat happened..

Wat in the world is happening to guys nowadays? Juz now, i came across to this one article http://www.kosmo.com.my/kosmo/content.asp?y=2009&dt=1022&pub=Kosmo&sec=Negara&pg=ne_01.htm, bout Roslin hashim who is sueing his wife, to repay all his loss after they oficially divorced. Wat da heck!!! This is a very immature act. committed by a very immature guy, who was once called as husband. Does he know the value of marriage? I guess he wants to take revenge towards his ex wife. Wat for? Have u ever loved her?http://http://www.seripengantin.com/v2/2009/05/fahami-erti-perkahwinan/

Im very emotional bout this, n so damn sad too. If this is the guy who wanna marry me, SORRY..I wont even look at u..Blah can u?.Guys, plz think twice before u do anything. Dunt let ur heart filled with hatred..with anger..Dunt let it be controlled by it..This is all for temporary only...

Hmm..im so scared..now i tend to think n believe dat life without a guy is better. Well, maybe bcoz im havent found one, the rite one. In the meantime, im juz fine with my life. Nothing to think except for..how to find more money..extra money..n money..hahahaha..

CUDA..

they say..

People say, Luv isnt a competition.
It's not a contest.
It's not even a battle.

But, i always encounter situations in which people will turn it into competition. Hmm.. i had once experienced it, myself. U know, sometimes, i believe we have to fight in order to get love. However, there are people who wud prefer waiting n doing nothing, waiting for love to come back, to return to him or her. Wat about you? Wud you do almost anything juz to get the 'love'? If u dont do anything, u'll get a very tremendous result...u'll get to lose it anyway..slowly...it will fade away..wash away by ur own stubbornness. Chase it? Maybe..Wel, maybe u have to show some efforts..because i believe love deserves to be treated nicely...n gently...

Luv isnt a competition, but im winning it..Hmm..a song from Paramore. Very meaningful..I hope ill win it, ill get the luv...i hope so..in the meantime, i got so many things to think. I wish i cud runaway from this...plz...show me a way to escape from this...

CUDA..

Finally..

Finally, the time has come for me to really make up my mind n decided this. It's not that im weak or giving up, but im so frustrated with all the things. Taking too long time to get things that absolutely mine, for sure. Im tired with this. Too tired. Dissapointed. Trouble is a friend of mine n it will find me no matter where i go...then i start to lose control.

I stop here..until this point, this dot. I wanna concentrate on something else. Looking for more opportunities n chances to get a better life. Ill grab anything along the way. It doesnt matter if i have to sacrifice my time, for a better future, for the sake of my loved ones. Ill do that...All the best to myself..gud luck..

CUDA...

am i a selfish?an island?

Ive been wondering whether i am a selfish person or not.

1. When i hurt other's feeling, n only care bout mine.
2. When i do things 1st without thinking bout the consequences.
3. When i dun care bout wat other think bout me.
4. When i dun give even a DAMN bout wat u think!!!!Not AT ALL...

Then again..am i a selfish person???

CUDA..

PARANOID??Am i??

I THINK I'M PARANOID...from GARBAGE
You can look but you can't touch
I don't think I like you much
Heaven knows what a girl can do
Heaven knows what you've got to prove

I think I'm paranoid and complicated
I think I'm paranoid, manipulate it

Bend me break me
Anyway You need me
All I want is you
Bend me break me
Breaking down is easy
All I want is you

I fall down just to give you a thrill
Prop me up with another pill
If I should fail, if I should fold
I nailed my faith to the sticking pole

I think I'm paranoid, manipulate it
I think I'm paranoid, too complicated
Bend me break me
Anyway you need me
All I want is you
Bend me break me
Breaking down is easy
All I want is you

I think I'm paranoid
I think I'm paranoid

Bend me break me
Anyway you need me
All I want is you
Bend me break me
Breaking down is easy
All I want is you

Steal me, deal me, anyway you heal me
Maim me, tame me, you can never change me
Love me, like me, come ahead and fight me
Please me, tease me, go ahead and leave me

Bend me break me
Anyway you need me
As long as I want you baby it's alright
Bend me break me
Anyway you need me
As long as I want you baby it's alright

my song for today..

CUDA..

Inspirational Love Sayings

• People love others for who they are but for how they make them feel. - By Irwin Federman
  
  
• What will survive of us is love - Philip Larkin
  
  
• Maybe love is like luck. You have to go all the way to find it. - By Robert Mitchum
  
  
• Where love is, no room is too small. - By Talmud
  
  
• We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly. - By Sam Keen
  
  
• Who so loves believes the impossible - By Elizabeth Barrett Browning
  
  
• Where there is great love, there are always miracles. - By Willa Cather
  
  
• You can't ever be really free if you admire somebody too much. - by Tove Jansson
  
  
• When men and women are able to respect and accept their differences then love has a chance to blossom.
  
  
• You will find, as you look back upon your life, that the moments when you really lived are the moments when you have done things in the spirit of love. By Henry Drummond

Why suddenly i talk about love here? Hmm..ive been wondering lately, about LOVE. It is so subjective, universal, so unique, when we talk about love. There are of course many types of love, not to limit it to our special boyfriend or girlfriend only. But, love to our creater, ALLAH S.W.T., to our family, friends, nature, religion,...etc. Even love ourselves, is something that people forget to do nowadays. We should appreciate ourselves, take care of our body, as it is lent by Him, for some time only.

So far, i love my family n my kids. Ive learnt not to love somebody too much as it can hurt me at the end, learnt how to control the feeling so that it wont go beyond the limit. Im searching for the one, that can open my heart, a person who can make me feel like im so blessed, so flattered, so appreciated...But, in this life, u cant be that demanding. I know. But im quite selfish. Its either i find that person, or i remain like this....For how long? Hmm..a question that i would like to ask myself too.

Most of all, ive learnt to get myself ready for any consequences, for the worst to come. "Bercinta biar berpada-pada, n sentisa beringat". Phobia? Yes quite so. But i believe, if there's a will, there must be a way too...So, if u have the will, why dont u find the way to make ur will become a reality?? "Belum cuba belum tau....

Till then, love is along the way. But, whether it will be found or not, that is a different matter...

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ALL THAT MATTERS...by ADDISON ROAD

That's all that matters

I may never be the one that gets a second glance

I may never be the one they call the prettiest

But thats alright with me

And maybe I don't follow every crazy passion

Spend all my time trying to get a good reaction

But thats ok with me

This world is like a trampoline

High and low no in between

Jumping at the chance to please

Everyone but thats not me

Cause all that matters is

All that matters is

I know your love has set me free

And thats all that matters to me

Cause all that matters is

All that matters is I know your love has set me free

And thats all that matters to me

Some people tell me to step out and do my own thing

And others say I got to blend in just to be the same

And stop being me

But this shallow world is no longer what I'm made of

I've been changed by grace

I've been saved by love

What more do I need

All that matters is

All that matters is

I know your love has set me free

And that's all that matters to me

My life comes from the One Who made the stars and brought the sun

He loves me more than these

So I don't need another identity

All that matters is

All that matters is I know your love has set me free

And that's all that matters to me

That's all that matters

All that matters..from Addison Road

A reward for myself..

I juz got myself a NEW MOON 2010 calendar from the Borders.Im so happy..yeah, after i shed my tears juz now, for the touching n sad movie,Tsunami(Korean). I consider this as a reward to myself after all. U should watch that movie, it touches our feelings, n the issue on the humanity, when all selfishness n only-care-about ourselves things are gone, when the greatest catastrophe takes over n controls all the events that should run accordingly. You cant fight with the natural disasters, but there are some preventions that could be done to prevent things from become worse.

Today, im in the mood of relaxing myself, going out to some places to release my tense. Well, i went to Paddington Pancakes House, surfing the net, while enjoying the meal here.Feel like being here alone, n no company..juz me,n me alone...Surely i got some problems to settle down, but i juz dun wanna ruin my day..so forget bout it today. All i got here is myself...

CUDA...

1 MALAYSIA N AIDILFITRI OPEN HOUSE..

1 MALAYSIA...N AIDILFITRI OPEN HOUSE(TENTS???)

with F4T7

with F4T7 students..in their tent.

with izwan (F5T2)

with F5T2 students..

Today, i had a wonderful day n very interesting event which took place here, in this college, in regards to raya's celebration as well as 1 Malaysia slogan. All students n staffs took part in the event, n were given tents for them to decorate it, place the food(dishes, kuih raya etc) n the most creative, interesting n beautiful tent would get the gifts as a token of appreciation.

with Syukri from F5T2..

with my colleagues..kak mawarni, mr teh n me..

with the best costume(there's no contest on dat..so SAD!)

with acap n hafiz from H1P2

I was one of the judges, had to walk to some tents, check n look around, the way they decorated the tents n give em marks.I wasnt really interested in being a judge, but wat i was so fond into, was the excitement n all the efforts that they have contributed in making this event a successful one. Surely they have done many preparation beforehand, the day before. OMG..i juz cudnt eat all the food served by them, juz too much..too many..Hmm..i found tosai, capati, all the rarely to be found food, and also the normal n common ones..sate, nasi impit, nasi tomato, laksa, soto, lontong, bihun sup, ketupat, lemang, roti jala...My oh my...

with the students

with H1T2

At the end of the day, i took away(tapau) some..since i cudnt eat all of em..too much for me.Hehehe..Tq students...Something new for me, a new experience...a new memory..

with my mentee..A1T1

with my students, H2P4..

WITH LOTS OF LUV....

MS.CUDA FUAD..09

NEW MOON TRAILER..20/11/09..COMING SOON..

NEW MOON TRAILER..

Why am i so obsessed with this movie? It starts from the book for sure. After i read the 1st book, Twilight, i become one of the big fans it has..n i join the Twilight saga's community.hehe..


Plot Summary

Isabella Swan was once a sensible, easy-going, rule-abiding teenager who always looked after the happiness and welfare of others, most particularly her divorced parents. Although Bella tends to be a clumsy "danger magnet," she has always put forth great effort to stay below the radar and shy away from the spotlight. When she moved to her father's house in Forks, Washington, (in Stephanie Meyer's first book, "Twilight") Bella had become a reluctant center of attention for her school, her father, and most of all, the beautiful and absolutely perfect Edward Cullen.

The romantic collision between Bella and Edward altered Bella's life for better and for worse. Although Edward Cullen is perfect in every way, he also happens to be a vampire. This means that he is gorgeous, lightning fast, infinitely strong, perpetually young and does not need.....read this link for more info..http://www.bookrags.com/studyguide-new-moon/plot.html

Whatever it is..I juz cant help myself from falling in luv with the books.

My favourite MOVIES

MOVIES!!!! My favourite past time is watching movies..I dun mind going to the cinema alone. And the types of movies that i like are, horror, comedy, thriller n fantasy..N some of my favourite actors are, Hugh Jackman, Brad Pitt, Keanu Reeves...N Johnny Depp.

Those are the list of my fav. movies..Actually, there many more,but i juz cant list all of em here. Are they the same with yours? Check em out..

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