So long...

Hi all..

It's been a while since my last entry.There were so many things happened around me n im still in the phase of adapting and adjusting myself with this new life. Feel so down sometimes but i know this is a test from Him to see how strong i am n how patient i can be,dealing with this matter.

I feel stress sometimes. I feel happy sometimes. I feel nothing sometimes too. Feelings and emotions come n go. They keep changing. I know sometimes i can be a bit moody too..i will say nothing n feel like being quiet n avoid myself from talking to others. Unstable? Maybe i am. Still,i can control myself by not doing something stupid, well..my kids are there to remind me each time i feel so low.

Life isnt easy.Who said so by the way? It's tough..yes indeed. But here i am..still walking thru the path that ive chosen. Endure the pain n bear with all the consequences of the actions that ive taken. Regret? Maybe a bit..i lie if i say no.But,its too late to feel that way..Im sure Allah has a better plan for me and everything happens with a reason. Maybe we are too blind to see the reasons. Maybe...

So, in the meantime, ill struggle hard to survive. Ill try to be strong. I must do this. I have no choice. I must move on with my life. InsyaAllah..life will get better eventually. I pray for that...

MS.CUDA