New year is approaching...n im waiting for Eclipse..

Salam...n hi my dear readers..It's been quite a while for me to visit my own blog and share my thoughts here.Hmmm...the issue here is,of coz non other than NEW YEAR 2010 n MY NEW RESOLUTION,if i have any.

Talking about 2009, personally,it's a NEW MOON for me. Well, i moved out from Malacca to Sg Petani,Kedah. I got transferred from Malacca Matriculation College to Penang Matriculation College.I've started living as a single parent.I got many new friends(hahahah...some share the same interests like me), n not to forget i've started a brand new ME here,a new life. There're many ups and downs throughout this year, which i wont forget at all.Sad and happy times, in which i had to go thru. Ive learnt a lot. Ive woken up from my dream. I noticed things that i didnt notice before,things that i hardly pay any attention on it...Hmm..in some ways,im a better person.I dont depend on others, i do things on my own.Like i said, sometimes im rather a selfish person. But,i believe i do that for a gud reason.

What's my hope?My dream?My goal?My so called resolution?Ive been in the intense ship, when i forced myself to do things that i know i couldnt do. So intense, so indulge in it. So, this time around, i'll try to achieve as many goals as i can. No harm in trying. Therefore, my new year's resolutions are:

1. I hope n wish i would be a better person, inside n outside, mentally n physically.My inner side shud improve, i hope.

2. I wish i could be a better mum to my lovely kids,afiq n fatin. I should be someone they could rely on, during their hard times, n we share our happy n sad moments together.

3. I wish i could find ways to improve my time management skills, apart from my financial management.huhu..really need to cut down my budget n expenses on outing, movies, dining out n books!!!

4.I wish i could meet someone new...hmm..edward?or jacob?Naah, i dun mind..both are fine for me..Juz need to find my own starlight, to reconcile the violence in my heart.

5. I wish my kids would be a better person, gud muslim n muslimah..n luv me,for i love them only God knows..

6. My last wish, i wish the three of us could stay together n nothing could separate us, "TILL DEATH DO US APART".

So, those are my wish for 2010..n i'll try to make it a reality. InsyaAllah..With God's Will...Amin. Peace to All, HEPI NEW YEAR!!!!

midnight sun..

Ive been reading the partial of Midnight Sun,the next book of the Twilight saga, written by non other than my favourite vampire romantic author, Stephenie Meyer. This is from Edward's point of view..n i found it is very fascinating, having to read what he thinks is something interesting. He is sexy, very classical in a way. I juz cant imagine a character like him in this real world, exists somewhere out there. I cant wait. Im waiting for the book to be released, so eager...enuff to make me cant sleep, after reading the 12 chapters of the 5th book.

I hope Stephenie will change her mind. N do hope that she'll get her mood back. Coz, it's so beautiful, the way she described Edward..Arghh..i dunno how to explain this..all i know is, it's to die for...Midnight Sun...n Edward...Well, u can read it urself thru this link...Enjoy n Chillax!!

http://www.stepheniemeyer.com/midnightsun.html

in some ways..

wanna share this..WHAT?They are done with eclipse?Seriously?I cant wait for it now..for June 2010.Well,like Taylor,i also love Eclipse among all the books.I dunno why im so attached to the saga. After my 1st time reading Twilight, recommended by my ex student,Daya, i found Bella n i share many similarities..we are the same in some ways. She is passionate, stubborn, strong willed and not to forget,clumsy.

When she says, she wants something, she really works to get it and she doesnt care bout other things anymore. I guess, im like Bella...Stephanie managed to describe her, so she looks like a very complicated girl who has a simple personality yet extraordinary. Yeah,she is so Bella..so like me.

The difference is, i dun get the chance to choose between Edward or Jacob. Coz, i dun have neither Edward nor Jacob in my life.Should it be one of them exist in my life, i would like to choose Edward, the cold one...but i dun miss a thing when i have a bestfriend like Jacob by my side.

Well, the saga continues...ill be waiting for it. Time flies so fast..i wont even notice it..So juz wait for Eclipse to come..

arghhh..

There goes my 1st match...i lose the game..but there are some more coming.I really hope i'll win it, to claim what ive lost..huhu..TQ my H1T2 students for the support..Well,some of the girls came to show their supports to their beloved lecturer(who else,IT'S ME!!)...TQ once again..

NEW MOON 's Review

As i promised before, i would like to write a review about the movie from the novel that i love the most,Twilight saga, which is NEW MOON. Knowing that many of you, maybe havent read the books and watched the movie, let me share with you some opinions from my point of view about this movie.

At first, i was so nervous, waiting for it to start and to see the opening scene of the movie. Yeah, there goes Bella, as i can see, as pretty n plain as she is described in the book. But wait, after that, there goes my favourite vampire ever, Edward, with his charming n gorgeous smile. Well, in general, this time around the movie focuses more on the recovering time of bella when edward left her (of coz edward loves her n thinks she's gonna be fine without him after some time).

Of course, with all the pros come quite a few cons. I was wondering, while they played up Jacob & the whole wolfe CGI really well they totally changed our beloved Cullen's, in particular the perfect angelic "Edward" which I was totally enamored with in Twilight! The tone of the movie did not capture the same emotion envoked in the first movie, Weitz got wrong! He had a perfect canvas in Rob Pattinson and he dropped the ball...did he even watch the first movie?? And How can you make angel face Rob (as described in the book)looks so goulish when he was supposed to be angelic? The sparkles were pretty impressive but did Weitz even direct?? I love the characters and can't imagine anyone but Rob playing Edward but I sure do hope they get it right in Eclipse and ease up on some of that make up bring back the passion and give us back the people we know. Yes, it's fantasy, yes they are vampires, however they were more blendable in the first film..which I liked. And even the colour of their eyes. If you notice, i prefer the colour that they had in the 1st movie, the scene when they are in the kitchen, waiting for Bella. They look more natural.

I also noticed other thing here. Their emotions. Somehow, they lack of emotion and they didnt really show it through their facial expressions, and the way they say it. Bella is such a nice character in the book, Kirsten Stewart is beautiful and in New Moon actually did a better job(yeah she is), but still she comes as cold and I could not feel her love for Edward at all, just her pain and she is great showing it. Edward is too intense and a scene with the phone in South America totally unnecessary. Too much make up, weird contacts, just so the audience could salivate over half naked boys and Robert Pattinson.

If you liked the book, you'll love the movie. If you didn't, don't bother. Even the Twilight fans who love the romance and fantasy can make fun of the books. Well, still for me, it's a great movie, eventough i prefer the books, because through that u can feel the real new moon...this movie lacks in terms of portraying the emotions and complex relationship of the two main characters. For people who did not read the book, I think they will never understand what makes them "right" for each other in the end.

So, it's up to u whether u wanna watch it or not, n nobody is forcing you to watch it. If u dont want, so dont bother ok!!!

I give 3.5/5...

CUDA....

Yeah..finally...

Well,im about to watch my favourite movie..New Moon today..hmm..i juz cant wait to find out whether there is a big difference from the novel or not.I will give my review n comments later about it..I guess today im doing things that i like..alone...n i juz luv it.See ya later!!

so damn pissed off rite now..

Juz felt so angry n pissed off with some people's statements on fb..especially when they talked about me..as if im a bad person, n have nuthing else to do....Oh,please la...dun be a busybody ok..!!

grrrr..

Headache..feel so dizzy..gggrrrrr...especially after the talk bout DG44 and all the PTK things..plus, other matters that are in my mind rite now...I cant meet my friend today,hope that person will understand..Sorry,cant make it..I juz feel so uncomfortable..with my head....

nuthing special happened today..

Nuthing much happened..juz another ordinary day.Well, i juz came across to my friend's post of the day..Hmm..i dun understand, this person, keeps talking bout her husband, giving a clue bout her having problem with her husband, n all the stupid stuffs that make people wonder, erk..who's that person?I kno who..shes talking bout herself.I dun wanna get involve in her matter,coz im tired listening to her problems, n no actions are taken. For me, if u wanna do something, give ur 100% heart n dun change. U have to be strong. ..It's better if she officially separate from her husband if she cant take it anymore rather than talking bad bout him n post it on fb..People read it u kno..Adding more sins there...so, better take one drastic action n thats it..

SHHHH..!!!!

Quiet by DEMI LOVATO...

i hear what you're not saying,it's driving me crazy.

it's like we stopped breathing in this room.

we're both the last to be leaving,i know what you're thinking,i wish you'd make your move.

it's much too quiet in here.

i wanna disappear.

i'm hearing myself thinking too clearit's too quiet in here,make it all go away.

why can't we break the silence, finally.

it's like you know where i'm going,you follow me home but,i never invite you inside.

i see what you're not showing,i've got you alone but,the air is so still, it's weird.

it's much too quiet in here.

i wanna disappear,i'm hearing myself thinking too clear.

it's too quiet in here,make it all go away.

why can't we break the silence, finally.

don't stop, don't stop telling me good night.

just promise you'll kiss me goodbye.

what's taking so long ?

don't tell me you're not gonna try,the tensions building in my mind.

i wanna SCREAM, and i know why.

it's much too quiet in here,i wanna disappear.

i'm hearing myself thinking too clear .

it's too quiet in here,make it all go away.

why can't we break the silence, finally.

make it all go away,it's too quiet in here.

Again..

I m so fed up with all the procedures n birocracy things...After all, it hasnt stopped n hasnt ended like i wish it would. Now, another delay..to January..How i wish next year my life would be better, n much happier. How i wish my life would never be the same again. How i wish I could be a better person, a better mum n better daughter..

Well,i cant express how regret n disappointed i am with all these things..Enuff is enuff. I pull back..coz i really wanna enjoy this life like i want it to be...So, U can go, BUZZ OFF!!!Go outta my life....Go away...

CUDA.

2nd version..

2. Ben Barnes

Huh..drop dead gorgeous!!!

my heart-throb..

My..i juz wanna share some pictures of the actors that i really fancy of, n adore..Both are so good looking...so handsome,so perfect..Look gorgeous..

1. Robert Pattinson

Isnt he gorgeous?Huh..he makes my heart melt...

Wait..the second version is coming...

juz to kill my time..n ur time...

MORE QUESTIONS TO ANSWER:

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? nope..juz a simple n plain name..but i luv it..
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? hmm..let me count the days starting from now...1,2,3,,4,......
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? erk..i like it,but u wont like it..Why bother?
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE LUNCH MEAT? Meat?Im a vegetarian...(cullen's member)
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? yup,u bet..a pair of lovely kids...
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? definitely..im fun to be with what!
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM? depends..on what purpose..
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? hmm...let me check 1st.
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? i wish i could..but im dying while trying out..
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE CEREAL? oat..hahahah..quacker oats ok.
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? nope..no shoes of mine r with string..or ropes..
13. WHAT IS/ ARE YOUR FAVOURITE ICE CREAM? strawberry cheese,yogurt taste..
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? their appearance
15. RED OR PINK? pink?
16. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVOURITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? very unorganized..n procrastinate person...
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST ? my kids...muah..muah..muah...
18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST? yes, plz do.
19. WHAT COLOUR OF PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? turqoise..black
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? tokio hotel songs..
22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE? purple..i luv it..
23. FAVOURITE SMELLS? food..food..n food..
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? muhammad rashidi.
25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? yeah..she's my ex housemate.
26. FAVOURITE SPORTS TO WATCH? Whats that?
27. HAIR COLOUR? black..
28. EYE COLOUR? black
29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? nope..so far so gud..
30 FAVOURITE FOOD? tomyam,steamboat n tosai...
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? Scary movies...
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? 2012..
33. WHAT COLOUR OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? turqouise
34. SUMMER OR WINTER? summer
35. HUGS OR KISSES? hugs...
36. FAVOURITE DESSERT? fruits pudding
37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? something funny
38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? anything that annoys me..
39.WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING? New Moon, The Official Illustrated Movie Companion
40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? nuthing, i dun have one.
41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT? erk..scary movie?
42. FAVOURITE SOUND(S)? sound of music.
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? Beatles...i wanna hold ur hand.
44. WHAT IS THE FURTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME? erk..jb.
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? yes, i can read minds..hahahaha...(stop saying that bout me plz..i kno)
46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? northern people...perlis..
47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK? all of u!!

Juz wanna kill more of my time...

from olin's blog..

QUESTIONS TO BE ANSWERED:

1.Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? WHY NOT..i kissed my kids' cheeks this morning..wiliing to kiss em again..n again..muah..muah.
2.Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt? Yup, so hurt that i cant have him anymore...so damn hurt..i was bleeding inside...
3.Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry? Yup...but i dun trust all those tears..u can cry like hell,but hell i dun buy it.
4. Are you happier single or in a relationship? Frankly speaking, i used to be hepi when in a relationship..but when it hurt me like hell, i felt so sad...so, now when im single like this, im much happier...
6.Have you ever told someone you loved them and didn't mean it? r u kidding me? yes..hmm..sian kot..sorry that i hurt ur feeling..
7.Have you ever had your heart broken? Gosh...so many times...my heart broke into pieces over n over again..now i dunno whether i still have my heart..or not.
8.Have you ever broken someone's heart? Quite a number..hmm..forgive me..
9.Talk to any of your ex's? yup,but we never talk the same way we used to...
10.If you could go back in time and change things, would you? i would think, do some thinking before i make my decision...
11.Think any of your ex's feel the same? Seriously, i dun give a damn bout him anymore..plus, why shud i?
12.Do you believe that you are a good girlfriend/boyfriend? yes,i am..only a fool will deny that fact..Erk..r u a fool?
13.Have you been in an abusive relationship? My mental will never be the same..im crazy..lalalalalala..lololololo..
14.Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? yup, but depends on the case...In ur case, NEVER!!
15.Do you believe in love at first sight? LOVE?What's that?
16.Do you want to get married? Was,once..n now i dun have any intention to do so again..im pretty happy with my life rite now tho..
17.Has anyone ever told you they wanted to marry you? Yup, but i declined that offer..not that easy ok..
18.Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend? Yup...but i take some steps behind the line...i kno my limit.
19.Does heartbreak really feel as badas it sounds? Yup..ull never kno...try one.

Well lin, ive answered all questions...

is it the end of the days? 2012..the review from my point of view..

Yesterday i watched 2012,the latest movie...Hmm..for 2 hours and 40 minutes, i watched it alone, really concentrated on it, tried to see it from a different angle n view. Some people dont like this kind of movie. Why? Becoz it's simply a big CRAP n big fat LIAR. Personally for me, 2012 is yet another example of technological genius and the effects are expensive-looking and impressive enough while you're watching them, although whatever awe they inspire doesn't last long.

It has the usual disaster film elements: concerned scientists pick up disturbing information, staring at computer screens and using important-sounding jargon (something about neutrinos). Government bureaucrats are reluctant to believe its implications. People say, "That's impossible!" Some ancient culture predicted this all along. Some crackpot conspiracy theorist predicted it all along, too. The disaster brings out the best and the worst in people. Someone says, "I thought we'd have more time." The same dozen people keep running into each other. Iconic landmarks collapsed. The entire world may be at risk, but we still have time for a little romance and some touching lessons about the importance of family. There are some sad deaths but a couple of convenient and satisfying ones as well. And when things really get bad, there's a soaring angelic choir on the soundtrack. The CGI is impressive, especially when the ground buckles and heaves as a car speeds along a crumbling road, trying to stay ahead of the collapse. And you don't need a lot of story in a special effects movie.

See, how typical the plot is. If u have watched "Independence Day" and "The Day After Tomorrow", u'll know what i mean by this. Once again, at the end of the story, there's a saviour, for all human race, the American guy (so stereotype that Americans are always the ones who saved the others), and they survive the catastrophe). Yeah, massive destructions can be seen, all places are damaged, either the buildings are all collapsed, or not to be found at all (flood, wave n big tsunami). But there's a question rises in the movie, " How do we decide, who will survive?". ..

Everybody has the same chance to fight for their own lives. Everybody should be given the same opportunity, thus let them grab the golden chance same like others (the VIPs and the SUPER DUPER VIPs). At the end of the movie, i felt quite satisfied becoz there are some survivals out of millions who cant make it. As i said, "Who are we to decide the survivors?".

I give 3.5/5..



2012 Trailer..Have a watch...

CUDA...

after the semester break...

Salam n hello again my dear readers..

I juz had my 1 week of semester break, n nothing much happened during the time. I spent all the time with the kids, mostly at home, since my mum is taking care of my new born nephew, Muhammad Khairul Rayyan. Well, we had "shaving head" plus my kids' besday occasion on sunday, last week..

I wasn't in the mood of writing, or saying anything here,last few weeks..There are too many things that i have to think, considering this and that, while im typing every word here,rite now. It's not easy to be me. It's never been an easy task being as a single mum, to be a mum for two kids, and at the same time, the eldest one in my family. All the responsibilities are above my shoulders. Gosh!Sometimes they are too heavy to carry...n how i wish i could share those heavy bricks (boring bricks boring) with someone. But, it's me. I know myself too well. Too well that i know what i want in my life. Enough with guys. Tired i am. It's about time for me to think about me and the kids only. Why should i bother myself by thinking about other person, who doesn't promise me anything when all i want, ive posessed it already.

Yeah, selfish i am. But for the sake of my kids, let me do what i want and what i think is the best for them. And, only Allah S.W.T knows what's the best for me n my kids...Till then, ill go with the flow..as time flies too fast, i have to catch it, and fill it by doing things that i like the most...

CUDA...

HEPI BESDAY DEAR..

Today is my lil princess' besday, NURFATIN QISTINA..She's now 2 years old.My..time moves so fast, n i feel like juz gave birth to her..She's so cute, cheekie, naughty, clever n not to forget a pampered daughter too. I only have two children n i really appreciate it, Alhamdulillah. Im very grateful to have them in my life, n they have coloured my world, n make me feel so blessed...

It's not easy to be a mum of two kids(well,there are many more who have more than mine!), i really have to work hard, to be strong, to hold still, to be patient,n to show them that i really care n concern bout them. I sometimes walk on the other side of the road, n get lost..Then, i reminded myself of the right path that i should go. Again, i started to take control of it...my own journey, my own life...with my two lovely kids..I luv u both my dear children...Muhammad Afiq Farhan n Nurfatin Qistina..Nothing can separate us from each other, i hope..Till death do us apart..

So, to the besday gal, i hope ull grow up n be a good daughter, a good person n muslimah..I hope Allah S.W.T. will always protect u from any harm n also bless u dear..Ibu sayang fatin..I luv u..

shared by CUDA..

all i wanted..

This is a very nice song from my fav band PARAMORE from their latest album, Brand New Eyes..The lyrics..do remind me to my own life..

Think of me when you're out, when you're out there
I'll beg you nice from my knees
And when the world treats you way too fairly
Well it's a shame I'm a dream
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
I think I'll pace my apartment a few times
And fall asleep on the couch
Wake up early to black and white re-runs?
That escaped from the mouth
Oh-OhAll I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
I could follow you to the beginning
And just relive the start
And maybe then we'll remember to slow down
To all of our favorite parts
All I wanted was you

Yeah..all i wanted was...argh..i dunno...Sometimes we have to forget our needs..or wat we want..for the sake of others'..

All i wanted-PARAMORE

wat happened..

Wat in the world is happening to guys nowadays? Juz now, i came across to this one article http://www.kosmo.com.my/kosmo/content.asp?y=2009&dt=1022&pub=Kosmo&sec=Negara&pg=ne_01.htm, bout Roslin hashim who is sueing his wife, to repay all his loss after they oficially divorced. Wat da heck!!! This is a very immature act. committed by a very immature guy, who was once called as husband. Does he know the value of marriage? I guess he wants to take revenge towards his ex wife. Wat for? Have u ever loved her?http://http://www.seripengantin.com/v2/2009/05/fahami-erti-perkahwinan/

Im very emotional bout this, n so damn sad too. If this is the guy who wanna marry me, SORRY..I wont even look at u..Blah can u?.Guys, plz think twice before u do anything. Dunt let ur heart filled with hatred..with anger..Dunt let it be controlled by it..This is all for temporary only...

Hmm..im so scared..now i tend to think n believe dat life without a guy is better. Well, maybe bcoz im havent found one, the rite one. In the meantime, im juz fine with my life. Nothing to think except for..how to find more money..extra money..n money..hahahaha..

CUDA..

they say..

People say, Luv isnt a competition.
It's not a contest.
It's not even a battle.

But, i always encounter situations in which people will turn it into competition. Hmm.. i had once experienced it, myself. U know, sometimes, i believe we have to fight in order to get love. However, there are people who wud prefer waiting n doing nothing, waiting for love to come back, to return to him or her. Wat about you? Wud you do almost anything juz to get the 'love'? If u dont do anything, u'll get a very tremendous result...u'll get to lose it anyway..slowly...it will fade away..wash away by ur own stubbornness. Chase it? Maybe..Wel, maybe u have to show some efforts..because i believe love deserves to be treated nicely...n gently...

Luv isnt a competition, but im winning it..Hmm..a song from Paramore. Very meaningful..I hope ill win it, ill get the luv...i hope so..in the meantime, i got so many things to think. I wish i cud runaway from this...plz...show me a way to escape from this...

CUDA..

Finally..

Finally, the time has come for me to really make up my mind n decided this. It's not that im weak or giving up, but im so frustrated with all the things. Taking too long time to get things that absolutely mine, for sure. Im tired with this. Too tired. Dissapointed. Trouble is a friend of mine n it will find me no matter where i go...then i start to lose control.

I stop here..until this point, this dot. I wanna concentrate on something else. Looking for more opportunities n chances to get a better life. Ill grab anything along the way. It doesnt matter if i have to sacrifice my time, for a better future, for the sake of my loved ones. Ill do that...All the best to myself..gud luck..

CUDA...

am i a selfish?an island?

Ive been wondering whether i am a selfish person or not.

1. When i hurt other's feeling, n only care bout mine.
2. When i do things 1st without thinking bout the consequences.
3. When i dun care bout wat other think bout me.
4. When i dun give even a DAMN bout wat u think!!!!Not AT ALL...

Then again..am i a selfish person???

CUDA..

PARANOID??Am i??

I THINK I'M PARANOID...from GARBAGE
You can look but you can't touch
I don't think I like you much
Heaven knows what a girl can do
Heaven knows what you've got to prove

I think I'm paranoid and complicated
I think I'm paranoid, manipulate it

Bend me break me
Anyway You need me
All I want is you
Bend me break me
Breaking down is easy
All I want is you

I fall down just to give you a thrill
Prop me up with another pill
If I should fail, if I should fold
I nailed my faith to the sticking pole

I think I'm paranoid, manipulate it
I think I'm paranoid, too complicated
Bend me break me
Anyway you need me
All I want is you
Bend me break me
Breaking down is easy
All I want is you

I think I'm paranoid
I think I'm paranoid

Bend me break me
Anyway you need me
All I want is you
Bend me break me
Breaking down is easy
All I want is you

Steal me, deal me, anyway you heal me
Maim me, tame me, you can never change me
Love me, like me, come ahead and fight me
Please me, tease me, go ahead and leave me

Bend me break me
Anyway you need me
As long as I want you baby it's alright
Bend me break me
Anyway you need me
As long as I want you baby it's alright

my song for today..

CUDA..

Inspirational Love Sayings

• People love others for who they are but for how they make them feel. - By Irwin Federman
  
  
• What will survive of us is love - Philip Larkin
  
  
• Maybe love is like luck. You have to go all the way to find it. - By Robert Mitchum
  
  
• Where love is, no room is too small. - By Talmud
  
  
• We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly. - By Sam Keen
  
  
• Who so loves believes the impossible - By Elizabeth Barrett Browning
  
  
• Where there is great love, there are always miracles. - By Willa Cather
  
  
• You can't ever be really free if you admire somebody too much. - by Tove Jansson
  
  
• When men and women are able to respect and accept their differences then love has a chance to blossom.
  
  
• You will find, as you look back upon your life, that the moments when you really lived are the moments when you have done things in the spirit of love. By Henry Drummond

Why suddenly i talk about love here? Hmm..ive been wondering lately, about LOVE. It is so subjective, universal, so unique, when we talk about love. There are of course many types of love, not to limit it to our special boyfriend or girlfriend only. But, love to our creater, ALLAH S.W.T., to our family, friends, nature, religion,...etc. Even love ourselves, is something that people forget to do nowadays. We should appreciate ourselves, take care of our body, as it is lent by Him, for some time only.

So far, i love my family n my kids. Ive learnt not to love somebody too much as it can hurt me at the end, learnt how to control the feeling so that it wont go beyond the limit. Im searching for the one, that can open my heart, a person who can make me feel like im so blessed, so flattered, so appreciated...But, in this life, u cant be that demanding. I know. But im quite selfish. Its either i find that person, or i remain like this....For how long? Hmm..a question that i would like to ask myself too.

Most of all, ive learnt to get myself ready for any consequences, for the worst to come. "Bercinta biar berpada-pada, n sentisa beringat". Phobia? Yes quite so. But i believe, if there's a will, there must be a way too...So, if u have the will, why dont u find the way to make ur will become a reality?? "Belum cuba belum tau....

Till then, love is along the way. But, whether it will be found or not, that is a different matter...

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ALL THAT MATTERS...by ADDISON ROAD

That's all that matters

I may never be the one that gets a second glance

I may never be the one they call the prettiest

But thats alright with me

And maybe I don't follow every crazy passion

Spend all my time trying to get a good reaction

But thats ok with me

This world is like a trampoline

High and low no in between

Jumping at the chance to please

Everyone but thats not me

Cause all that matters is

All that matters is

I know your love has set me free

And thats all that matters to me

Cause all that matters is

All that matters is I know your love has set me free

And thats all that matters to me

Some people tell me to step out and do my own thing

And others say I got to blend in just to be the same

And stop being me

But this shallow world is no longer what I'm made of

I've been changed by grace

I've been saved by love

What more do I need

All that matters is

All that matters is

I know your love has set me free

And that's all that matters to me

My life comes from the One Who made the stars and brought the sun

He loves me more than these

So I don't need another identity

All that matters is

All that matters is I know your love has set me free

And that's all that matters to me

That's all that matters

All that matters..from Addison Road

A reward for myself..

I juz got myself a NEW MOON 2010 calendar from the Borders.Im so happy..yeah, after i shed my tears juz now, for the touching n sad movie,Tsunami(Korean). I consider this as a reward to myself after all. U should watch that movie, it touches our feelings, n the issue on the humanity, when all selfishness n only-care-about ourselves things are gone, when the greatest catastrophe takes over n controls all the events that should run accordingly. You cant fight with the natural disasters, but there are some preventions that could be done to prevent things from become worse.

Today, im in the mood of relaxing myself, going out to some places to release my tense. Well, i went to Paddington Pancakes House, surfing the net, while enjoying the meal here.Feel like being here alone, n no company..juz me,n me alone...Surely i got some problems to settle down, but i juz dun wanna ruin my day..so forget bout it today. All i got here is myself...

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1 MALAYSIA N AIDILFITRI OPEN HOUSE..

1 MALAYSIA...N AIDILFITRI OPEN HOUSE(TENTS???)

with F4T7

with F4T7 students..in their tent.

with izwan (F5T2)

with F5T2 students..

Today, i had a wonderful day n very interesting event which took place here, in this college, in regards to raya's celebration as well as 1 Malaysia slogan. All students n staffs took part in the event, n were given tents for them to decorate it, place the food(dishes, kuih raya etc) n the most creative, interesting n beautiful tent would get the gifts as a token of appreciation.

with Syukri from F5T2..

with my colleagues..kak mawarni, mr teh n me..

with the best costume(there's no contest on dat..so SAD!)

with acap n hafiz from H1P2

I was one of the judges, had to walk to some tents, check n look around, the way they decorated the tents n give em marks.I wasnt really interested in being a judge, but wat i was so fond into, was the excitement n all the efforts that they have contributed in making this event a successful one. Surely they have done many preparation beforehand, the day before. OMG..i juz cudnt eat all the food served by them, juz too much..too many..Hmm..i found tosai, capati, all the rarely to be found food, and also the normal n common ones..sate, nasi impit, nasi tomato, laksa, soto, lontong, bihun sup, ketupat, lemang, roti jala...My oh my...

with the students

with H1T2

At the end of the day, i took away(tapau) some..since i cudnt eat all of em..too much for me.Hehehe..Tq students...Something new for me, a new experience...a new memory..

with my mentee..A1T1

with my students, H2P4..

WITH LOTS OF LUV....

MS.CUDA FUAD..09

NEW MOON TRAILER..20/11/09..COMING SOON..

NEW MOON TRAILER..

Why am i so obsessed with this movie? It starts from the book for sure. After i read the 1st book, Twilight, i become one of the big fans it has..n i join the Twilight saga's community.hehe..


Plot Summary

Isabella Swan was once a sensible, easy-going, rule-abiding teenager who always looked after the happiness and welfare of others, most particularly her divorced parents. Although Bella tends to be a clumsy "danger magnet," she has always put forth great effort to stay below the radar and shy away from the spotlight. When she moved to her father's house in Forks, Washington, (in Stephanie Meyer's first book, "Twilight") Bella had become a reluctant center of attention for her school, her father, and most of all, the beautiful and absolutely perfect Edward Cullen.

The romantic collision between Bella and Edward altered Bella's life for better and for worse. Although Edward Cullen is perfect in every way, he also happens to be a vampire. This means that he is gorgeous, lightning fast, infinitely strong, perpetually young and does not need.....read this link for more info..http://www.bookrags.com/studyguide-new-moon/plot.html

Whatever it is..I juz cant help myself from falling in luv with the books.

My favourite MOVIES

MOVIES!!!! My favourite past time is watching movies..I dun mind going to the cinema alone. And the types of movies that i like are, horror, comedy, thriller n fantasy..N some of my favourite actors are, Hugh Jackman, Brad Pitt, Keanu Reeves...N Johnny Depp.

Those are the list of my fav. movies..Actually, there many more,but i juz cant list all of em here. Are they the same with yours? Check em out..

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