all i wanted..

This is a very nice song from my fav band PARAMORE from their latest album, Brand New Eyes..The lyrics..do remind me to my own life..

Think of me when you're out, when you're out there
I'll beg you nice from my knees
And when the world treats you way too fairly
Well it's a shame I'm a dream
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
I think I'll pace my apartment a few times
And fall asleep on the couch
Wake up early to black and white re-runs?
That escaped from the mouth
Oh-OhAll I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
I could follow you to the beginning
And just relive the start
And maybe then we'll remember to slow down
To all of our favorite parts
All I wanted was you

Yeah..all i wanted was...argh..i dunno...Sometimes we have to forget our needs..or wat we want..for the sake of others'..

All i wanted-PARAMORE

wat happened..

Wat in the world is happening to guys nowadays? Juz now, i came across to this one article http://www.kosmo.com.my/kosmo/content.asp?y=2009&dt=1022&pub=Kosmo&sec=Negara&pg=ne_01.htm, bout Roslin hashim who is sueing his wife, to repay all his loss after they oficially divorced. Wat da heck!!! This is a very immature act. committed by a very immature guy, who was once called as husband. Does he know the value of marriage? I guess he wants to take revenge towards his ex wife. Wat for? Have u ever loved her?http://http://www.seripengantin.com/v2/2009/05/fahami-erti-perkahwinan/

Im very emotional bout this, n so damn sad too. If this is the guy who wanna marry me, SORRY..I wont even look at u..Blah can u?.Guys, plz think twice before u do anything. Dunt let ur heart filled with hatred..with anger..Dunt let it be controlled by it..This is all for temporary only...

Hmm..im so scared..now i tend to think n believe dat life without a guy is better. Well, maybe bcoz im havent found one, the rite one. In the meantime, im juz fine with my life. Nothing to think except for..how to find more money..extra money..n money..hahahaha..

CUDA..

they say..

People say, Luv isnt a competition.
It's not a contest.
It's not even a battle.

But, i always encounter situations in which people will turn it into competition. Hmm.. i had once experienced it, myself. U know, sometimes, i believe we have to fight in order to get love. However, there are people who wud prefer waiting n doing nothing, waiting for love to come back, to return to him or her. Wat about you? Wud you do almost anything juz to get the 'love'? If u dont do anything, u'll get a very tremendous result...u'll get to lose it anyway..slowly...it will fade away..wash away by ur own stubbornness. Chase it? Maybe..Wel, maybe u have to show some efforts..because i believe love deserves to be treated nicely...n gently...

Luv isnt a competition, but im winning it..Hmm..a song from Paramore. Very meaningful..I hope ill win it, ill get the luv...i hope so..in the meantime, i got so many things to think. I wish i cud runaway from this...plz...show me a way to escape from this...

CUDA..

Finally..

Finally, the time has come for me to really make up my mind n decided this. It's not that im weak or giving up, but im so frustrated with all the things. Taking too long time to get things that absolutely mine, for sure. Im tired with this. Too tired. Dissapointed. Trouble is a friend of mine n it will find me no matter where i go...then i start to lose control.

I stop here..until this point, this dot. I wanna concentrate on something else. Looking for more opportunities n chances to get a better life. Ill grab anything along the way. It doesnt matter if i have to sacrifice my time, for a better future, for the sake of my loved ones. Ill do that...All the best to myself..gud luck..

CUDA...

am i a selfish?an island?

Ive been wondering whether i am a selfish person or not.

1. When i hurt other's feeling, n only care bout mine.
2. When i do things 1st without thinking bout the consequences.
3. When i dun care bout wat other think bout me.
4. When i dun give even a DAMN bout wat u think!!!!Not AT ALL...

Then again..am i a selfish person???

CUDA..

PARANOID??Am i??

I THINK I'M PARANOID...from GARBAGE
You can look but you can't touch
I don't think I like you much
Heaven knows what a girl can do
Heaven knows what you've got to prove

I think I'm paranoid and complicated
I think I'm paranoid, manipulate it

Bend me break me
Anyway You need me
All I want is you
Bend me break me
Breaking down is easy
All I want is you

I fall down just to give you a thrill
Prop me up with another pill
If I should fail, if I should fold
I nailed my faith to the sticking pole

I think I'm paranoid, manipulate it
I think I'm paranoid, too complicated
Bend me break me
Anyway you need me
All I want is you
Bend me break me
Breaking down is easy
All I want is you

I think I'm paranoid
I think I'm paranoid

Bend me break me
Anyway you need me
All I want is you
Bend me break me
Breaking down is easy
All I want is you

Steal me, deal me, anyway you heal me
Maim me, tame me, you can never change me
Love me, like me, come ahead and fight me
Please me, tease me, go ahead and leave me

Bend me break me
Anyway you need me
As long as I want you baby it's alright
Bend me break me
Anyway you need me
As long as I want you baby it's alright

my song for today..

CUDA..