Brandi Carlile - The Story

Dedicated especially to u..my dear...My Edward.

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...
I was made for you

I climbed across the mountain tops
Swam all across the ocean blue
I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules
But baby I broke them all for you
Because even when I was flat broke
You made me feel like a million bucks
You do
I was made for you

You see the smile that's on my mouth
It's hiding the words that don't come out
And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed
They don't know my head is a mess
No, they don't know who I really am
And they don't know what
I've been through like you do
And I was made for you...

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...
I was made for you

Hmm..Eclipse...

I watched Eclipse twice. But, im not satisfied with it. I dunno..there's something missing from the movie. Bella's wig seems wrong plus her make up. She looks rather not beautiful, yeah i know she's supposed to be not that pretty, but i like her looks in New Moon. Edward is even worse. I love him in Twilight..young and gorgeous, but in Eclipse, he looks older n more mature. Well, he's always 17. So they shouldnt make up him to the extent that can make he looks older.

Despite all those negative things, i do like the overall storyline. It really tallies with the book this time around. The newborn vampires, Victoria, Riley,n what i like the most is Charlie. He is so amusing. Funny yeah, he is. The best scene from the movie is, when Edward proposes Bella, very romantic n i almost felt what he feels at that time...U know, so touching. I hope mine will be the same too. Overall, Eclipse is juz a fine movie, ok. I'm not fully satisfied but can do la...

There are many obstacles awaiting, ahead. I think i can be like Bella, very determined, brave, certain, n stubborn with her choice n willing to fight for it. This is something that i want, to i must fight for it. At least ive tried my very best, then only i can sit back n relax... If not, i'll regret one day, for not giving the best of me. May Allah help us to find the right path of life...n guide us all..Giving up isnt in my things-to-do list at all or even surrender.

Bella has inspired me in many ways...She motivates me to work harder...Ill do my very best....InsyaAllah.

CUDA...

Edward Cullen

In less than two weeks time, i'll get to see my favourite love saga, Twilight Saga:Eclipse, the third installment. I'll see my Edward there.

Edward, who isnt just a man but a decent man n a VAMPIRE! He is described as a very selfless guy ever, gorgeous, generous, kind-hearted, charming, loyal and a man full of loves, despite all the hunger and the crave for blood, he manages to fight with his own desire, for the one he really loves, Bella.

Edward, cares and concerns about Bella than himself, he always puts her as his first priority among all. I fell in love with Edward Cullen. The character, seems so real and alive. How i wish i could find a guy like him, but no.This is a world of reality that we are facing. Everything is real. So, i shouldnt compare anyone with Edward. That is totally selfish of me. Everyone has their own attributes, that what makes them so special n different from one another. Everyone has the positive n negative side, so i guess we have to endure the uniqueness of these people.

Edward, until the end, he fights for Bella. He's willing to sacrifice for her, to make sure that she gets the best n happy. He wants her to be happy. On top of that, he is a very sensible and wise guy. Every decision that he makes, he always thinks ahead. He is very patient, very very patient. That's why in a way, he completes Bella, who is so clumsy,reckless, impatient and stubborn, just like me.

I really love Edward and Bella...They both look good and perfect. They support each other. They inspire each other. The most important thing is, they love each other and they are willing to defend each other, no matter what happen. Im so touched by this. Seriously.

I dun care if you dont like Twilight Saga. After all, that's your choice. This is my choice. I fell in love with the books... Now, tell me why shouldnt i fall in love with him?

" Bella, i couldn't live with myself if i ever hurt you. You don't know how it's tortured me. The thought of you, still, white, cold...to never see you blush scarlet again, to never see the flash of intuition in your eyes when you see through my pretenses...it would be unendurable. You are the most important thing to me now. The most important thing to me ever." Edward Cullen,Twilight,Chapter 13, p.274.

CUDA...

Especially dedicated to dayah..

Gal,
i might know nuthing bout ur past life.
i might not understand ur feeling.
i might not go thru the same thing like u did.

BUT, i can imagine if one day, my lil gal, growing up juz like u, n write something like that, bout her feeling towards her daddy. I'll cry. I'll once again shed my tears. Shes going thru the same thing. She will feel like what u felt one day.

Suddenly, i feel so sad. If u were my daughter, dear, i wud have done anything to make u feel happy until u wont feel all those melancholic n sad feelings. U've reminded me to be a good mother to my kids. Tq dayah. I know how hurt n sad ur feeling is, but believe in this: ALLAH will give u happiness in the end. Sometimes we have to go thru sorrow, n then only we can find our own happiness.

I feel down too dayah sometimes. But, when i think bout those who i love, i put aside my negative feelings...I live for em.. I dunno what will happen in the future, but all i know is what had happened to my life. I have to wake up from this misery. The agony misery that i used to feel, will not be welcomed anymore. I wont allow it.

Life is beautiful actually. So, dayah..lets move on n prove all the people that we can get what we really want. I dun care bout what people say or talk bout me anymore. Im too good for em. Thats why. Till then dayah, take care n be safe. Luv ya.

CUDA...

Funny laa..seriously, funny.

Juz now i read my friend's blog, n she has recommended her readers to read the links of blog site that she has linked there, so i did. Guess what? I found the blog is quite amusing and annoying too at the same time. This blogger is talking and condemning about other blogger who, she claimed, talk badly bout her n so bad-mouthed. Waa...now blog has became a stage for people throwing stones over each other n rotten eggs. Hahahah..for me, it's funny still. The same thing happen to her, talked badly bout other people.

As for me, i write about me n barely bout other, unless if that person hurt my feeling to the core. I will juz write bout what that person has done to me n not to criticize every lil thing that that person does. Owh please...we are much much better that em..Dun repeat the same thing, condemn everything that nuthing to do with u at all!!Let em be...let em do wateva they want.

U cn check the blog here:
http://peejburhan.blogspot.com/2010/04/entry-khas-untuk-blogger-diva-yang.html

Funny n irritating too at the same time... Im not going to do that..to attack people like that is not me at all..I might be selfish n so inconsiderate sometimes, but this isnt something that i can tolerate at all. Sad to say..there many of these people out there..U can read, but dun be like em. Life is so beautiful to be wasted this way..

CUDA..

Placebo - Running up That Hill (official video)

It doesn't hurt me.
You wanna feel how it feels?
You wanna know, know that it doesn't hurt me?
You wanna hear about the deal I'm making?
You be running up that hill.
You and me be running up that hill.
And if I only could,Make a deal with God,And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,Be running up that hill,Be running up that building.
If I only could, oh...
You don't wanna hurt me,
But see how deep the bullet lies.
Unaware that I'm tearing you asunder.
There's a thunder in our hearts, baby.
So much hate for the ones we love?
Tell me, we both matter, don't we?
You, be running up that hill.You and me, be running up that hill.
You and me won't be unhappy.
And if I only could,Make a deal with God,And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,Be running up that hill,Be running up that building,
If I only could, oh...C'mon, baby, c'mon, c'mon, darling,
Let me steal this moment from you now.
C'mon, angel, c'mon, c'mon, darling,
Let's exchange the experience, oh...
'And if I only could,Make a deal with God,And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,Be running up that hill,
With no problems...
If I only could, be running up that hill.'

Cuda...